I’m just writing in to say that I am sooo proud of myself! I just finished chapter five of my debut novel….currently untitled, LOL! I’m one of those people who will title the novel after it’s done. I just write, and write and write until I’m done. When I used to be a dance teacher, I’d choreograph the very beginning after all the rest of the song was done. There’s something about working backwards, LOL…
I’m not even sure I know where my whole story is going. I have four main characters – each with their own heavy share of drama. It’s going to be a challenge getting them out of their individual predicaments, but I have enough craziness and creativity to figure something out for each of my lovely characters.
I also want to start adding to some of the stories I have posted on here already. Who knows? If I continue to add to these stories, I might actually end up with a nice book of short stories. I may even have a whole novel depending on how dedicated I am to the story!
But I’ve come to realize that I cannot get by on passion alone. Passion is not going to write my books. Because of my passion, I will write the book. But I have to put forth the effort and write! I’m tired of talking about it…it’s time to truly be about it. I am so tired of waking up every morning and going to a job I’m not in love with. Seems to me to be a waste of forty hours a week. Why not take those hours and dedicate them to something far more productive?
I know it will be a while before I’ll be able to make a complete and total living out of writing, but I also believe God that it will happen – because it’s a passion God placed within me – and I have no passion to do anything else but this!
I don’t think God’s going to sit back and watch me fail. He’s going to lead me, guide me, direct me and bless me along the way. Help me with this journey God. Help me to believe in my calling and want it for the reasons you want me to want it. Help me to embrace it and love it more than I already think I do, in Jesus name!
If I get to the point where all I have to do is work a day job part time, then I’m happy, because I’d at least be making some kind of a living out of writing! Part time will turn into no time, and eventually, I’ll be writing FULL TIME! And that’s my ultimate goal.
But nothing will happen if I allow myself to be and stay discouraged. Life comes at you hard. Sometimes you don’t want to do anything but sit back, shut up, and accept the status quo. But God’s given me a higher calling than that. God’s given me something better to do than to accept mediocrity. The beginning of me understanding what I’ve been placed on this earth to do began when I realized and understood that I’m not supposed to be normal. What Christian is supposed to be normal? We’ve all been called to be peculiar. But I had a really strange feeling I was called to be a tad more peculiar than others.
None of us are called to be mediocre. I’m sure God doesn’t appreciate anything halfway done, or half heartedly done. I had a feeling that what I was called to do would take me out of all levels of my comfort zone and push me into some things that I’m afraid to be apart of. Things that are mere dreams….no where close to reality….but are supposed to be.
Maybe I’m making sense, maybe I’m not. But I know what I’ve been called to do and I can’t really sit around and ignore it too much longer. I can’t treat it like it’s some kind of pipe dream. I don’t have anything else going for me and I certainly don’t feel I have a future in sign selling. I’d rather jump into the Bay from off the Bay Bridge!
I mean, there’s nothing wrong with my day job. It’s only a waste of my life because it’s just not for me! Since I know what is for me…I’m going to keep writing until I can scratch project number one off my list and start working on getting an agent and getting my book published.
It just makes sense!
